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Saturday, May 16, 2015

16th May 2015

I've said it before,
But, i'm going to say it again.

Happy Teacher's day 2015!

My life do revolve around teachers.
This year, this particular left-handed, hardworking, petite, charming, focused, adorable, gorgeous, strict, flawless, beautiful, cheeky, selfless, intelligent, smile-dimpled, TESLian, and attractive teacher(going-to-be) made my life more meaningful as days go by.

She is the perfect physical evidence why i am attracted to teachers. Guess what? Even many of her family members are teachers!!! *insert the scream emoticon* Which explains where she inherited the gruesome deathstare and somehow good in spanking(eh?).

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
poems are hard,
Teacher, i love you.


Monday, April 27, 2015

Present of the future past

Have you ever gave yourself a deep thought about something?
If you are given a chance to go back in time,
To right one wrong,
to speak then, or to forever hold your peace?
What will it be?

Is it when you first said " I love you"?
Or the time when you were broken after?

The time when you finally ignored a cry for attention,
or the moment you actually opened up to them before?

That few meet ups of smiles and giggles that they put on your face,
or when they finally make your tears flow like it worths nothing?

The decision that keeps you both a stranger,
or the time when you decide to make him a stranger, once more?

Present of the future past,
you can right one wrong before it passes... Done.

Saturday, March 28, 2015


It has been a while since i updated my blog. Well, about me to be exact.

Lots of things happened since 2014. Sun rose and set, tides risen and ebbed, flowers bloomed and rot ...it is already end of March 2015.

My Work: 


Devours our life source from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And of our yesterdays born innate fools
The way to ignorant idiocracy. Out, out, paleolithic mentality!
Life's but a string puppet, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the corporate stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,Signifying nothing.

My relationship:

Two roads diverged in a passionate boulevard,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one hopeless romantic, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it was groomed and mannerly arranged;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was audacious and wanted wear;
Though uncertainty awaits all along the way,
Nor the journey whatnot the destination far or near,
And both that divergence equally lay
In love, my step had trodden black.
Oh, I left the first for another man!
knowing that how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever regret.
I shall be telling this with a delight,
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a boulevard, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,And that has made all the difference

Dear you,Please bear with me.I had a colourful past.bitter and cold, betrayed and fooled, nevertheless colourful.Haha...colourful... remember how our lips looks like we're saying "i love you" when pronouncing it?
Esther Francis Swee,I love you.Fullstop. 

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Twisted confession

Falling in love, helplessly descending,
Wondering how deep is this hole, continuously falling.
Endless pit, so vacant and so hollow,
How deep do you plan for me to love you?

Never ceased to gain my slightest attention,
Juggling words and strumming emotion.
Drowning me with all your love and affection.
I am only human to be seduced by such ungodly temptation.

Never had I been approached by such,
Filled with lust and alluring touch.
Nothing gentle, tender or any of its kind,
But this is the type of love I seek to find.

The twisted endearment disguised off this gentleman,
Curiosity attracted me to this mysterious sentiment.
Never a dull second or a monotonous moment,

Take me now and make me feel like a woman.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

The old hut

There was an old cosy hut,
Sturdy, homey but with notable cut.
Warm, safe and full of love,
A shelter from sun, from rain above.

Dear mister hut, please stay, please stay,
I have to be somewhere, far away.
Let me go through my shedless days,
in my lego houses or foreign chalets.

Fireplace, foods and accommodation,
Satisfy me my needs at this very moment.
But deep down inside my memory pane,
That hut still hugged my comfort, my sane.

Let me be protected being distance apart,
Please stay vacant, my lovely hut.
Though you are untitled, by anonymous builder,
I am with right now, but you are my forever.

That cosy hut where I felt warm and loved,
Still empty, no caretaker, remained untouched.
Dear mister hut, please stay, please stay,
I promise to return, but.. not now,not today.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014


Aku hanyalah seorang manusia.
Tak ku kenal sakit selagi tak kecundang,
Tak ku kenal bahagia selagi tak kehilangan.

Betapa "manusia"nya kita,
Dikitab, disebarkan, diciptanya "agama",
Semata-mata untuk "mengampun" dosa kita.
Dalam mengejar kerakusan, nafsu dan nikmat duniawi.

Semakin ditegah, semakinku megah,
Dikunci langkah, semakinku sergah.
Apakah tujuan, apakah haluan,
Dalam permainan yang tiada pemenangnya.

Silap, salah, dosa dan moraliti,
Hanyalah pandangan dan perhitungan dari komuniti,
Kau katakan ku salah, adakah benar?
Ku tepis kenyataanmu, apakah yang benar?
Siapakah atau apakah yang memberi kata putus?
Sebegitu "manusia"lah diri kita....
"DiTuhankan manusia, dimanusiakan Tuhan".

Coretan si burung hantu.
updated via Z30:

Monday, April 21, 2014

First Post of 2014!

Wow...Just wow...abandoned again eyh my dear bloggie~
Baaad Eugene...*smack2*


Alright, let me see...
Woohooo!!! 11k views! Yay me!
*holds up a bottle-trophy* I would like to thank everyone out there reading my silly blog, thank you for all your support!! *tears*
if teddies can talk, they'll be like :"dafuq is wrong with this dude?!"

Well well well....
21st April 2014.
My first update in 2014.
Status: Single, (and all my friends will go- "pfffftttt, Eugene?Single?pfffftttt!!")

Job: Yes, Marine Superintendent (did i spell that right?)

Money: never enough

Expensive addiction: Her (i'm glad that's over!), Tamiya (that 4wd toy car thingy- i even bought the freaking track!!), Phones (6 in possession now, DON'T ASK ME WHY), PsP enhancing(i manage to connect the PsP to the TV, and play it via wireless on big screen!! woohoo!!), Magic Realms(Craziest, MOST expensive addiction i ever had in my whole life...i can say that i spent...maybe.....around....5k already? Shut up!), Latest: Nintendo 3DS XL(Go Pokemon,GO!!!)

The best part so far for 2014 is that...i finally settled down on land. I do miss sailing, i can never deny that, i do...but now i'm not that far off track. Currently working as a MS (Marine Superintendent) in Borcos Shipping...An Offshore support vessel company...

i don't really know what to rant about this time...
oh, that girl that used to bite me all over?
Nope. I refuse to stay in THAT kinda relationship. Those expensive addictions that i mentioned just now, was to get over her. I didn't say it was easy. But i just did it. G'bye Ms Miasara/Mimoi/Applemintt.

A friend of mine visited Miri recently!
She flew all the way from KL to Miri just for sight seeing. She just went off like that without telling her parents and siblings. Well, if you do that, please do get ready to get lectured all the way from airport to the next point. I'll keep babbling till you decide to call them up. Grrrr....

Cik Adilah bongok. Yea, that's her name. Hahaha, Bongok is a type of food that is a bit chewy and hard to swallow, thus the name, Adilah Bongok.

Never in my imagination that she is such a petite girl! I was surprised to see her in such a "chibi" form. :)
(i know you're reading this, Google it)

She is the same, in person and in our long distance friendship. Laughs explosively, being too comfortable (Korek hidung calit merata), Makan sambil peluk kaki atas kerusi ala2 gangster, Buang air xflush.
Ok, all those are fake except for the laughing part. ngeeeeee~ :D

She's funny, gullible, talkative, easily excited, pious, polite and... ah,,,,xleh puji lebih2!!
Oh, she made yummy oreo pudding thingy for me the other day~
hopefully she improved on the sugar estimation...(potong kaki)

dah2, xyah nak excited sgt Cik Adilah Bongok oiii~

The End.

Later2 lah sambung.

*Ambek ngko, entri yang rojak bangang punya language*