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Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Twisted confession

Falling in love, helplessly descending,
Wondering how deep is this hole, continuously falling.
Endless pit, so vacant and so hollow,
How deep do you plan for me to love you?

Never ceased to gain my slightest attention,
Juggling words and strumming emotion.
Drowning me with all your love and affection.
I am only human to be seduced by such ungodly temptation.

Never had I been approached by such,
Filled with lust and alluring touch.
Nothing gentle, tender or any of its kind,
But this is the type of love I seek to find.

The twisted endearment disguised off this gentleman,
Curiosity attracted me to this mysterious sentiment.
Never a dull second or a monotonous moment,

Take me now and make me feel like a woman.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

The old hut

There was an old cosy hut,
Sturdy, homey but with notable cut.
Warm, safe and full of love,
A shelter from sun, from rain above.

Dear mister hut, please stay, please stay,
I have to be somewhere, far away.
Let me go through my shedless days,
in my lego houses or foreign chalets.

Fireplace, foods and accommodation,
Satisfy me my needs at this very moment.
But deep down inside my memory pane,
That hut still hugged my comfort, my sane.

Let me be protected being distance apart,
Please stay vacant, my lovely hut.
Though you are untitled, by anonymous builder,
I am with right now, but you are my forever.

That cosy hut where I felt warm and loved,
Still empty, no caretaker, remained untouched.
Dear mister hut, please stay, please stay,
I promise to return, but.. not now,not today.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014


Aku hanyalah seorang manusia.
Tak ku kenal sakit selagi tak kecundang,
Tak ku kenal bahagia selagi tak kehilangan.

Betapa "manusia"nya kita,
Dikitab, disebarkan, diciptanya "agama",
Semata-mata untuk "mengampun" dosa kita.
Dalam mengejar kerakusan, nafsu dan nikmat duniawi.

Semakin ditegah, semakinku megah,
Dikunci langkah, semakinku sergah.
Apakah tujuan, apakah haluan,
Dalam permainan yang tiada pemenangnya.

Silap, salah, dosa dan moraliti,
Hanyalah pandangan dan perhitungan dari komuniti,
Kau katakan ku salah, adakah benar?
Ku tepis kenyataanmu, apakah yang benar?
Siapakah atau apakah yang memberi kata putus?
Sebegitu "manusia"lah diri kita....
"DiTuhankan manusia, dimanusiakan Tuhan".

Coretan si burung hantu.
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Monday, April 21, 2014

First Post of 2014!

Wow...Just wow...abandoned again eyh my dear bloggie~
Baaad Eugene...*smack2*


Alright, let me see...
Woohooo!!! 11k views! Yay me!
*holds up a bottle-trophy* I would like to thank everyone out there reading my silly blog, thank you for all your support!! *tears*
if teddies can talk, they'll be like :"dafuq is wrong with this dude?!"

Well well well....
21st April 2014.
My first update in 2014.
Status: Single, (and all my friends will go- "pfffftttt, Eugene?Single?pfffftttt!!")

Job: Yes, Marine Superintendent (did i spell that right?)

Money: never enough

Expensive addiction: Her (i'm glad that's over!), Tamiya (that 4wd toy car thingy- i even bought the freaking track!!), Phones (6 in possession now, DON'T ASK ME WHY), PsP enhancing(i manage to connect the PsP to the TV, and play it via wireless on big screen!! woohoo!!), Magic Realms(Craziest, MOST expensive addiction i ever had in my whole life...i can say that i spent...maybe.....around....5k already? Shut up!), Latest: Nintendo 3DS XL(Go Pokemon,GO!!!)

The best part so far for 2014 is that...i finally settled down on land. I do miss sailing, i can never deny that, i do...but now i'm not that far off track. Currently working as a MS (Marine Superintendent) in Borcos Shipping...An Offshore support vessel company...

i don't really know what to rant about this time...
oh, that girl that used to bite me all over?
Nope. I refuse to stay in THAT kinda relationship. Those expensive addictions that i mentioned just now, was to get over her. I didn't say it was easy. But i just did it. G'bye Ms Miasara/Mimoi/Applemintt.

A friend of mine visited Miri recently!
She flew all the way from KL to Miri just for sight seeing. She just went off like that without telling her parents and siblings. Well, if you do that, please do get ready to get lectured all the way from airport to the next point. I'll keep babbling till you decide to call them up. Grrrr....

Cik Adilah bongok. Yea, that's her name. Hahaha, Bongok is a type of food that is a bit chewy and hard to swallow, thus the name, Adilah Bongok.

Never in my imagination that she is such a petite girl! I was surprised to see her in such a "chibi" form. :)
(i know you're reading this, Google it)

She is the same, in person and in our long distance friendship. Laughs explosively, being too comfortable (Korek hidung calit merata), Makan sambil peluk kaki atas kerusi ala2 gangster, Buang air xflush.
Ok, all those are fake except for the laughing part. ngeeeeee~ :D

She's funny, gullible, talkative, easily excited, pious, polite and... ah,,,,xleh puji lebih2!!
Oh, she made yummy oreo pudding thingy for me the other day~
hopefully she improved on the sugar estimation...(potong kaki)

dah2, xyah nak excited sgt Cik Adilah Bongok oiii~

The End.

Later2 lah sambung.

*Ambek ngko, entri yang rojak bangang punya language*

Saturday, November 9, 2013


Define pain.

When you see someone fell and broke their leg,
you picked them up,
Nurture them,
Feed them,
Heal them,
Fix them.
without putting your wants into consideration.

that broken leg?
yes, painful.
But not as painful as when
they are healed,
they start running off again without looking back,
 without a single glimpse,
leaving you behind,
expecting you to be there again when they hurt themselves.

That feeling of letting go and make yourself always available for them?

That my friend,
that is pain.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

"A Piece of Memory"

A girlfriend?
i don't know.

It's funny how this,

Became this.

Then turned into this.....


Friday, August 23, 2013

"Lovin' Ice Cream"

As I sit there counting my days,
Reminiscing our moments, just me and you.
As we bid farewell to the Sun's bright rays,
the floor finally occupied only by me and you.

I sat quietly, containing my tears,
approaching fast is the day that i fear.
Regardless, you're always filled with smiles and cheers,
singing a song for me to hear.

Circling around me with a scene that i could only dream of,
your romantic ways that melt this pure heart and soul.
your touch, your kisses and all those intimate stuff,
making these tears much harder to hold.

"Ice-cream sarang dugeun dugeun sangsang",
those words still echoes in my ears,
A song which was cheerful and uplifting,
is now a BGM for our flashback reels.

How much more can this innocent heart sustain?
How long more can i hide this pain?
For that beautiful smile, i'd die again and again,
two hearts met and now unfairly chained.

Ps:// Preferably be read with the song as BGM.

Lovin' Ice Cream