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Tuesday, June 11, 2013

"Happy Father's Day"


I've always demanded for the best or new,

yet, I've never really actually thanked you.


Only after I've grown up and mature,

I start to understand you, a whole lot more.

How did you make things looked so easy,

with a cool expression and smiled cheerfully.


"Go ahead", you've always gently said,

Supportive with every big decisions I made.

 You swiftly turned away when your eyes turned red,

how deep was the passion that you must have had.


How I wish to hold your warm palms like before,

But you do not possess those kind of strength anymore.


I appreciate your company by my side,

your advice, your experience and all your guides.

Dear time, I beg you, please move slower,

then it won't make him grow any older.


I'd trade my youth, anything for my dear father,

I'd do everything, for you to stay much much longer.

Stay strong, Daddy, tell me what can I do for you,

It is time for you to rest and let the burdens go.


How I wish to hold your warm palms like before,

But you do not possess those kind of strength anymore.


Thank you for your sacrifice, pillar of our family,

And all the things you've always given me.

Am I still the child of your pride and glory?

Am I still the son, you've never lose faith or worry?


I'm no longer the boy you carry on your back,

I no longer need you to pack my bag.

I've grown up, Daddy, take a look at me,

It's time to give me, the burdens you carry.


I'd trade my youth, anything for my dear father,

I'd do everything, for you to stay much much longer.

Do I still, make you feel proud?

Am I still, the one you brag about?


I've always demanded for the best or new,

yet, I've never really actually thanked you.





P/S: Preferably be read with the song as BGM.



Thank you Daddy,

I love you.



=')



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Sunday, June 9, 2013

"K.A.M.U."





Andai kata ku tak sempat melihat mentari pagi,
andai kata ku tiada lagi,
janganlah dikau menitis air mata,
sesungguhnya air matamu terlalu berharga.

Tiada kehilangan akan dikau rasa,
kerna memang sudah terlalu lama,
tiada lagi kita berhubung khabar,
tiada lagi kita bermain kata.

Jauh jarak membezakan kita,
jauh juga kau tinggalkan cinta,
api mu malap ditelan masa,
tetapi api ku kekal dan terus membara.

Inilah cinta seorang pelayar,
penuh cabaran dan rintangan menduga,
kesetiaan hati pada yang satu,
walaupun sukar dan jarang bertemu.

Harta, wang dan mainan duniawi,
takkan mengubati hati yang sunyi,
bila ku mula lafazkan cinta,
bermakna dikau terlalu istimewa.

Walaupun tidak bertentang mata,
masihku tatap gambar-gambar lama,
ku baca semula ayat-ayat mesra kita,
bertakung semula air mata.......

Andai kata ku tak sempat melihat mentari pagi,
andai kata ku tiada lagi,
janganlah sesali pengakhiran sebegini,
senyumlah kerna sempat saling mengenali.





Ps:// Preferably be read with the song as BGM. 


Najwa Latif - I Love You

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Saturday, June 8, 2013

"Tale Of An Untold Eternal Love"

It was indeed a magical night,
chills, whispers and flashes of lights.
A short chapter is about to start,
a story that involves two pure innocent heart~




An old man tore off his old attire,
hitting rocks for sparks, which ignites into fire,
thus was born a fiery soul,

burning everything, burning all.



As the fire, warmth the cold unforgiving night,
the old man started to blank his sight.

Suddenly appears a vague figure,
a humanoid boy, the soul of the fire. 



He burns anything that he lays upon,
beautiful rare flowers are also gone,
he destroys everything unintendedly,
there he sat, feeling so lonely.

A gust of wind blows somewhere near,
a leaf flew gracefully in the air.
It landed peacefully upon a pond,
making a soft, calm watery tone.



The leaf made loops of endless wakes,
the peaceful silence it suddenly breaks.
Droplets of water flew into the air,

making up a figure with long wavy hair~

She slides and strides and dances away,
no words can describe her beautiful play..

Like an Angel,which was made out of water,
born so gorgeous at this ungodly hour.



The bright sight attracted her attention,
she started approaching towards his direction.
As, their eyes eventually met,
what is this feeling that they suddenly felt?




She stretched her hand, for a polite handshake,
He reached it and suddenly, out comes a shriek!
Steams and smokes mixed in the air,
they felt the pain but they do not seemed to care.


It was indeed a magical night,
chills, whispers and flashes of lights,
Little do they know, how things will go,
playfully enjoying, letting the bond grow ~
 
Darkness dispersing,owh how time flies,
only then they realized they both shrunk in size,
 Immediately, they stepped away from each other,
wanting to appreciate the moment a little longer.



As they both were souled by a mysterious power,
they now know that, it is just a matter of hour.
Their hands met again to peel away the agony,
into the thin air, their love led their destiny.



Such, is their short love story,
never told nor heard by many.
They shall reborn for they both conquered death,
maybe in other forms of creatures or human on earth.



Ps:// Preferably be read with the song as BGM.



Cascada - Everytime We Touch


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"Waiting For My Real Life To Begin"


"Waiting For My Real Life To Begin"
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Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
I'll stand on the bow, feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down down down, on me

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in
But don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today, suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams, I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path, up this cobbled lane
I'm walking in my old footsteps, once again

And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Just let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now, my ship is coming in
I'll keep checking the horizon
And I'll check my machine, there's sure to be that call
It's gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon
It's just that times are lean

And you say, be still my love
Open up your heart, let the light shine
Don't you understand
I already have a plan
I'm waiting for my real life to begin

On a clear day I can see, see for a long way
On a clear day I can see, see for a long way.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Goodbye my dream, my hope, my love.

Till we meet again, "Captain".


"Bapanya mahukannya jadi seorang nakhoda, 
Bukan cita-citanya, 
Bukan impiannya.

Dia terlalu muda tuk tinggalkan keluarga, 
Bila tiba masanya, 
Pilu mula terasa.

Berkecamuk hati, hatinya sendiri, 
Persoalannya kini, sampai bila mampu ku bertahan, 
Mampukah ku bertahan?

Wowo, 
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku, 
Wowo, 
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
Wowo, 
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku, 
Wowo, 
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Beginikah selalunya cinta, 
Diakhiri sengsara, 
Setelah dicurahkan semua.

Cuba ku dalami, 
Sampai termimpi mimpi, 
Namun apa yang ku jumpa, 
Semuanya sama.

Berkecamuk hati, hatinya sendiri, 
Persoalannya kini, sampai bila mampu ku bertahan, 
Mampukah ku bertahan?

Wowo, 
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku, 
Wowo, 
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.
Wowo, 
Nampak ketarakah dilema di wajah ku, 
Wowo, 
Diluarnya tenang tapi tuhan saja tahu.

Ini semua dugaan Nya"


Thursday, May 30, 2013

Dream~

Last night, was the first time I fell asleep so deep that I had a dream after quite some time.
It has been countless nights that I can't sleep. Awake till the next rise of twilight.
More than a month, if I'm not mistaken. Reason being so? Only the people i consider close ones knows.


Last night,
It might have been the body resistance against my sudden refusal to consume the drugs I was prescribed on.
I fell asleep, common for others to sleep,right? But not me...recently.
At first, it was not one of those "Good night, Sleep tight" thing.
The pain really squeezed my brain, eyes felt unusually warm, very hot breath.(I might have burned my pillow). Then, I was awoken by a phone call. After that, resume to catch some sleep.

I finally fell asleep. Lucid dreaming? No.
More like a visit into my pre-constructed Lalaland.
It's funny, when i start dreaming, I always return to a few "familiar" places.
Like a game of Counter Strike, spawning into different fields after a full match.
Ok, enough about that.
I fadely remember the dream. Except for some details.
A deserted wooden house. With a cabin like the ones on the ship.
I saw a figure, staring out the window. A total silence. Dim room, but i can identify those Kina-Grannis-braided-ponytail hairstyle. My heart went storming suicidally. As i take small and slow paces toward her, she turned around, as if she was waiting for me all along. Not a word was spoken or said.
She rushed to me, unlike her egoistic reality, she leaned in and hugged me. Speechless and shocked, I started stroking her braid down to her back softly. Looking so petite and weak in her purple shirt.
She wrapped her hands around my body, below my arms. Showing signs of fragility and defenceless.
I couldn't express my feelings at that moment. A brawl between my total opposite polars. I knew that it was a dream all along...but i didn't want it to end any other ways... i forced myself awake...
Tears. Tears started to roll down the edges of my eyes. My eyes was wide open, it was around 5am. Motionless. I saw my phone's low battery warning light flashing. But, I didn't move an inch. I didn't want to spoil that feeling. I even tried to force myself where i left that "situation". But it never reappears. I guess, it was good that i left it that way. Giving me this...rush...adrenaline rush, thinking of what happened, what might happen next, reasons, might be another vision of mine, anything. It kept my dead spirit going.

The girl in purple.
Your stance looked so humble.
Your gaze looked so empty,
Like you're looking right through me.

Why did you turn around?
I know i didn't make a sound.
Were you really expecting me?
Or just any guys will do, will be?

Questions keep shooting me from every direction,
Deciphering our motion and action.
Whether it is another sign from Him,
But in the end, i realize it's just a dream.

I love how much i hate you.
And,
I hate how much i love you.


Saturday, May 18, 2013

Mestikah pengakhirannya sebegini? eewSsicnarFrehtsE

Di manakah silap tutur kataku?
Di manakah salah perbuatanku?
Sehingga aku diperlakukan sebegini,
Sehingga aku menghina diri...

Aku dikejutkan dengan berita itu,
Kau bakal dijodohkan kepada aku,
Mula2, aku meronta ingkar,
kemudiannya aku....aku jatuh cinta.

Semenjak bermula persahabatan kita,
ternyata memang kau wanita yang berbeza,
Kau sorokkan berita itu,
bahawa kau bakal isteriku.

Bergolak sudah pemikiran aku,
Goyah sudah pendirian aku,
Tak pernah kusangka jodohku begini,
Sebegitu sempurna hati,budi pekerti.

Kau penuhi segala permintaan hatiku,
Namun otakku mula bercelaru,
Ku takut kau akan berpaling dariku,
Aku tegar mahu memiliki dirimu.

Hari kepada malam, Minggu kepada bulan,
Ternyata berputik sudah sebuah hubungan,
Tetapi aku, rakus maju ke hadapan,
memaksa dirimu membuat keputusan.

Kau kuncikan sebuah jawapan,
Belajar dahulu, cinta kemudian,
Aku buta dengan jawapanmu itu,
Aku memaksamu mencintai diriku.

Ternyata aku melulu di situ,
Kau mula menghindari aku,
Hilang sudah sebuah cinta,
Masing2 mula berburuk sangka.

Aku terus cuba menebus diri,
Hadiah? Wang? sanggup ku beri,
Namun kau bukan wanita begitu,
Kau tak putus hampakan usahaku.

Kini penyakit menghantui diriku,
tetapi wajahmu masih di igauanku,
Semakinku berkali melawan ajal,
Semakinku rindukan kita sewaktu awal.

Tidakku jadikan sakitku sebagai alasan,
Untuk membuatmu penuh sesalan,
Ku masih mengharapkan cinta darimu,
Bukan ehsan, simpati dan syahdu.

Tidak pernah aku sebegini,
menagih cinta dan mencaci diri,
sebegitu pentingnya dirimu padaku,
walaupun kau terus dingin terhadapku,

Aku masih tidak mengalah,
Walau nafasku sudah bercampur darah,
Aku yakin "kita" akan berlaku,
kerana ku tahu kau sayang diriku.

Kau sering memuji nilai2 yang kumiliki,
yang setiakan agama dan mengagungkan cinta suci,
Tetapi apakah lagi yang kau ingini?
Mestikah pengakhirannya sebegini?

Thursday, May 16, 2013

True Pain

 






Nobody will ever understand this pain,
not my comrades nor my closest friend.
Screw the saying, "no pain, no gain",
I gave and tried, just to be hurt again.

 






Little sunshine and little rain,
this gloom of hurt can never end,
Game of flirting, game of lust,
there's no such thing as; hearts not crushed.









I have been part of those games too,
juggling hearts and lovers through.
But in the end, I am still blue,
searching for, a love which is true.

 


 

Little love and little heart,
never came and be of my part.

Howls of lone wolf in the night,
answers all of my deepest fright.

 







 

Good things comes to those who wait,
to me, this phrase does not relate.

Time is playing against my fate,
Once you realized, it might have been too late.










My eyes kept wide through the deaths of night,
Sleepless nights and cursed by wights.
Fear of backstabs of my own breath,
Unforgivingly overthrown by my own health. 




















Droplets of water that does not cease,
Ticking clock and heartbeat race.
These are the things that pales my face,
still NOTHING compared to you, Queen of my demise.







Limes squeezed on fresh new cuts?
Nails plucked and eyes thrown with darts?
No words can describe this true pain,
Love, you betrayed me, thus I am slain.

Monday, April 8, 2013

5 Minutes Break, 09Alpha!!!



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Regardless the "show" these guys are putting up in here,
They are actually very bright and yes, top students!
I expect nothing less than being successful from these guys~
:D


Zero Nine Alpha,
Auuummm!!!

CADETSSS!!! WAKEY2!!!!!

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Our beloved Warden Jeffrydin,
Everyday around 6 am,
He'll roam around all the cabins and ring the freaking bell (0:08) just a few centimeters from our freaking ears!!!
Well,
We're considered lucky if he does that.







There were a few occasions when he roams around with a Cricket BAT!!!!
guess what he does with that?















Boys will be boys,
you know how some of them sleep~

Let your imagination run wild!!
XD

Sunday, April 7, 2013

"Love"

A poem  requested by special someone.





There are many ways for affection of love,
From loving another and to The One above.
The adrenaline of how strong it feels,
Making us hunger for chills and thrills.




There's no greater love than of a mother's,
Keeping us safe for countless hours.
Showered us with tender and care,
A bond that nothing could ever tear.




Tough love felt between the siblings,
Love-hate emotion that strengthens the links,
No matter how much they quarrel or fight,
From harm they'll protect, with all their might.



 
The bond that felt between the buddies,
Of raging dragons and hopping bunnies.
A winter's mitten and the first flower of spring,
That is what, true friendships bring.




The moment I see you, I know it's love,
I see butterflies flying and kissing doves.
I want to be the one you'll say goodnight to,
And wake up having my arms around you.




When we gaze into each other's eyes,
It feels like being in paradise.
Wishing you're mine for the rest of my days,
I love you, my dear, forever and always

Friday, March 8, 2013

U.

If you love me,
Find me.

Don't stop.










Colourful.................